Monday, February 18, 2008
GOSH LARHHS! ii everyday also lack of sleep. So much to do, so little time. My sister having her CAs tomorrow. ITS LIKE, DAMN FAST! My F&N is going to be like, due soon. ii have to start chiong-ing everything. ii don't think ii will get enough sleep again. God. iim like, torturing myself larhhs! Did ii even brace myself for all this shit that iim going to have in Sec4? ii don't think so lorhhs. iim like, still in relax mode. iim not taking alot of things seriously lorhhs. ii have to start shifting into gear. But ii can't, cause ii have nothing to help me. And iim having problems with HIM* right now. Unless ii can solve the HIM* problem, ii can't do anything at all larhhs! ii hate myself. Did anyone tell you that? ii hate myself for being so weak in this part of life. No one knows what is exactly on my mind right now. Only me. ii can't say it out. Its too difficult lerhhs. So ii won't do anything about it. No matter what everyone tells me about it, ii know its impossibe larhhs. ii told HIM* that myself. But ii have sworn that ii will protect what ii hold dear to me ; HIM* and ii konw ii will NOT break my promise to myself. Its the same case for Zhan. ii swore to myself that ii will protect these 2 dumbdumbs and ii know ii will do it. HAHAHAHAH! Feel honoured man ZhanYi! You have someone to protect you! ((x
Boy, trust me. If ii could forget you in an instant, ii would not hesitate to do so. For the sake that you stay happy, why not? ii told you before. ii will do anything to help you gain your wishes and ii will do anything that will ensure that you stay happy and joyful with a bloody big smile on your face. ii know ii will do what ii say. But ii can't forget you, what you are doing makes it hard for me to forgive and forget. ii wanna make sure everything is alright. ii wanna know that you are safe. ii can't sleep without knowing that you are safe and sound and unharmed. ii con't concentrate without knowing that you are asleep and not doing funny things. ii can't eat without knowing that you have done everything and anything that has to be done. You might think that iim very naggy, but that because iiLy. ii mean it. ii wouldn't even be BOTHERED to do ANYTHING like this to anyone of my EX-s because ii ain't with them anymore. Please. Don't do anything that will make me worry. ii have cried enough for you. And if ii cry more, ii will have no more tears left for you.
Imprints of ♥ 12:30 AM.
