Friday, May 09, 2008
Okayys. ii have a few more papers left to go. just my Bio, POA paper1, Maths paper2 and F&N. Great, all these papers are enough to KILL me. Francis sms-ed me just now saying that there is no tuition tomorrow and it is changed to sunday instead. ii don't know why and ii don't wann know. How about that yahh? ii can believe iim thinking about all my problems again. ii shall write up a bloody paragraph about it and you see if you can understand it yahh?
ii feel damn low and dejected ever since this whole thing started. ii have never felt like the old me ever before since it began. ii can't smile from deep beneath inside my heart. ii never feel like iim IT. iim gonna get the feeling back again. ii don't know what has happened between us. Suddenly, ii feel like ii don't know you at all. ii feel very detached from you. Its like, we were never that far from each other before. iiim not used to it. ii really am not. ii miss the closeness and fun and laughter that we shared all those months and days and maybe years ago. ii miss those times. ii really do. ii wanna go back to the past again. ii wanna right all the wrongs that ii have created and everything to go back to the way it used to be even before ii realised ii like and loved him and ii never wanna let him go. ii wanna live llife the way it was before things happened. ii want things to be normal. ii wanna talk and laugh and study and just play and have fun. ii miss you my dear. Didn't anyone tell you that? ii seem like iim alright. No, everytime ii look in your direction, ii feel very down. Everytime ii see you, ii wanna encourage you and ask you to work hard and do your best. Because you have to. Its the only shot that we have before we hit the OLevels. ii hate doing what iim doing now. ii can't believe ii can't tell you anything anymore. ii just can't open up and tell you everything ii feel. ii don't wanna play the 360s game with you. its too much for you to take. ii can't do it. No ii can't. ii really miss you alot girl. You always seem to be with them and not the girls anymore. Or maybe its just me. You are alot closer and bonded to them and iim just stranded out here in my own disaster. Maybe you can help me, maybe you can't. Seriously, why do you people always think that my apology to you is pure sarcarsm? Why don't you think or try and understand that when ii APOLOGISED ii really meant it? Why not? ii don't understand anything anymore. ii just don't.
ii feel damn low and dejected ever since this whole thing started. ii have never felt like the old me ever before since it began. ii can't smile from deep beneath inside my heart. ii never feel like iim IT. iim gonna get the feeling back again. ii don't know what has happened between us. Suddenly, ii feel like ii don't know you at all. ii feel very detached from you. Its like, we were never that far from each other before. iiim not used to it. ii really am not. ii miss the closeness and fun and laughter that we shared all those months and days and maybe years ago. ii miss those times. ii really do. ii wanna go back to the past again. ii wanna right all the wrongs that ii have created and everything to go back to the way it used to be even before ii realised ii like and loved him and ii never wanna let him go. ii wanna live llife the way it was before things happened. ii want things to be normal. ii wanna talk and laugh and study and just play and have fun. ii miss you my dear. Didn't anyone tell you that? ii seem like iim alright. No, everytime ii look in your direction, ii feel very down. Everytime ii see you, ii wanna encourage you and ask you to work hard and do your best. Because you have to. Its the only shot that we have before we hit the OLevels. ii hate doing what iim doing now. ii can't believe ii can't tell you anything anymore. ii just can't open up and tell you everything ii feel. ii don't wanna play the 360s game with you. its too much for you to take. ii can't do it. No ii can't. ii really miss you alot girl. You always seem to be with them and not the girls anymore. Or maybe its just me. You are alot closer and bonded to them and iim just stranded out here in my own disaster. Maybe you can help me, maybe you can't. Seriously, why do you people always think that my apology to you is pure sarcarsm? Why don't you think or try and understand that when ii APOLOGISED ii really meant it? Why not? ii don't understand anything anymore. ii just don't.
Imprints of ♥ 10:27 PM.
