Wednesday, January 28, 2009

Yehh, i don't care. FUCK OFF IF YOU DON'T LIKE ME.

i changed my blogsong. xDD Hahah! Nothing much happened this few days. o.O Went back to school last friday to see CNY performance. Then went out with Sakdiyah and co. to Sakura (capitol) to have lunch. i tell you, that was the day we laughed like mad people, the whole place, filled with our laughter. Our table was like the loudest table in the restaurant. Nizar kept asking for chilli crab $40 one. HAHAHAH! i have weird photos of what happened before we went and when we were there and after that when we went to Peninsular (sp?) shopping arcade there go shopping. HAHAH! SUPER FUNNY. On the way back to Serangoon to take bus home, Nizar made us laugh like shit like that. Cause he keep acting nerd. Then JunWen and Andrew sitting next to him keep laughing. The bangala person sitting near them also trying to keep his laughter and amusement to himself. ._. So malu. The whole train full of our laughter. And the train trip very long, we take to Habourfront then come back. Which means more laughter. HAHAH! Then me and Clarissa keep finding hoodie, but my babymilo hoodie is 65 bucks. $$$$$* So KA-CHING LEIIS. KNS. Heck, after CNY i go back with Clarissa to buy. ((: Now, PICTURES. Later Shaun say everything words he see until very pekchek. LOL.

Blurred. xDD

Imprints of ♥ 9:23 PM.

Thursday, January 22, 2009

i feel damn bloody fucked up right now. And i agree with what Nad posted on yesterday.

'' She likes to pretend that everything's alright because when everyone else thinks you're fine, sometimes you forget for awhile that you're not. ''

Don't you agree? Maybe thats why everytime i tell people i'm alright, they always think i am, and then i pyscho myself into THINKING that im fine. Is that why? i really wonder. What does she think i am? Her sandbag? Something for her to vent all her anger out on just because im her daughter? i'm also human too okayys. i DO have feelings alright. Dumb fuck. She makes me super duper mad like shit. i wanna kill people. But i don't know what i can do. i wanna pick a quarrel with someone, fight with someone, just bash someone up. But who on earth will be nice enough to allow me to do that? No one in the right state of mind would let me do that, even if i were a girl. Ass.

It was just 5 minutes ago she said those hurtful things to me, just 5 fucking minnutes ago. And i can still remember everything clearly in my mind. It just keeps repeating inside my head. '' Everything you say is just words, you don't mean a thing at all. '' Is that right? Is it true? What the hell is wrong? What in the fucking world did i do WRONG? i didn't feel this sad when that idiot using garry's name insulted me like shit, but why does her words affect me so much? i didn't do anything wrong. So why the hell is she picking on me like that. i swear she does this type of things on purpose, isn't it? If that isn't the case, THEN WHY THE HELL IS SHE SCOLDING ME FOR NO APPARENT REASON?!

i don't wanna talk to anyone anymore. Leave me alone alright?

Imprints of ♥ 11:34 PM.

PISSED. My mum shouted at me for no reason and now she is pissed at me. WTF DID I DO LARHH. I ALSO NEVER DO ANYTHING WHAT. Zzzzzz. Son of a bitch. Seriously man, she needs to get a LIFE. Asssss..

i saw Darren Lim (the actor?) when i was at work just now. HAHAH! SO COOL! i think he stays around the sengkang estate. HAH! Lucky us (me, Shariyah, Mervyn, Joeffery)! xDD

i have been tagged by zharbor to do a quiz. Zzzzz. Idiots.

Tag 10 people to do this quiz.

1)DORA
2)Nicole WOMAN!
3)Sijia
4)Dewi
5)Irene
6)Marcus
7)Eugene
8)Nadiah
9)Sakdiyah
10)Dennis

1) How did you meet no. 4?
Errr, my ex-classmate's ex-girlfriend, then she become my gan mei.

2) Do you have any crush up there?
Nope, none to my liking.

3) What would you do if you hadn't met no. 1?
i think life in secondary school and Guides would be BORING BORING BORING!

4) What would you do if no. 6 & no. 2 were going out?
ARE YOU KIDDING ME? Xavier and Irene would kill Marcus and Nicole RESPECTIVELY (and Marcus, Irene and Nicole are ACQUAINTED [sp?])

5) How did you meet no. 8?
GIRLGUIDES! :DD

6) Is no. 2 your good friend?
YEPPS! Strike out the ''good'', change it to best friend. She has known me for a DECADE. Shes my woman.

7) Who is no. 8 best friend?
Dora, me, Irene, Aziera, Chrisminie, Khalisah (i think?)

8) Have you ever dated no. 1?
No? SHE IS FEMALE!

9) Do you miss no. 4?
YES! :( i wanna go back to school.

10) What do you think of no. 6?
A VERY NICE PERSON TO KAJIAO! And a very trustwrothy person? Heheh!

11) What do you think of no. 7?
HE! A REAL nice person, real mummy and daddy boy. Very PRO in chem.

12) Who does no. 3 like?
i have got NO idea. Do you?

13) Have you ever been to no. 8 house?
Yes, to study, but landed up making a lot of noise. xDD

14) Do you love no. 2?
OBVIOUSLY! She is LOVED! xDD

15) Do you trust these people?
i trust most of them to all the deepest darkest secrets and i know they won't tell it out unless i give them the permission to do so. HAHAH! How nice.

Imprints of ♥ 8:11 PM.

Friday, January 16, 2009

OHH MY GOSH. i don't know if i made the right choices. What do you think?

Choice of Courses

Exam Sitting(s): 2008

1 - T44 BAKING & CULINARY SCIENCE (TEMASEK POLYTECHNIC)

2 - T26 APPLIED FOOD SCIENCE & NUTRITION (TEMASEK POLYTECHNIC)

3 -T45 VETERINARY TECHNOLOGY (TEMASEK POLYTECHNIC)

4 - T02 ACCOUNTING & FINANCE (TEMASEK POLYTECHNIC)

5 - T01 BUSINESS/LOGISTICS & OPERATIONS MGT/MARKETING (TEMASEK POLYTECHNIC)

6 - T20 APPAREL DESIGN & MERCHANDISING (TEMASEK POLYTECHNIC)

7 - T22 INTERIOR ARCHITECTURE & DESIGN (TEMASEK POLYTECHNIC)

8 - T31 BIOTECHNOLOGY (TEMASEK POLYTECHNIC)

9 - T27 BIOMEDICAL SCIENCE (TEMASEK POLYTECHNIC)

10 - C98 ACCOUNTANCY & FINANCE (NANYANG POLYTECHNIC)

11 - C97 NURSING (NANYANG POLYTECHNIC)

12 - T47 RETAIL & HOSPITALITY (TEMASEK POLYTECHNIC)

Anywayys, I GOT A NEW PHONE! <333333 HAHAHAHAH!

Imprints of ♥ 1:19 AM.

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

ARGHH! WHAT COURSE TO TAKE?! And i wanna go out tomorrow. HOW HOW?! MUST FINISH BY TODAY! im dying. Zzzzzzz.

Imprints of ♥ 11:10 PM.

Friday, January 09, 2009

Coming to think of it now that i've cooled down, maybe she didn't want to let us know about it because she knew our reactions would be like this. So maybe i would forgive her later. Zzzzzz. Thanks woman for listening to me. i needed someone to talk to. THANK GOD she was doing her homework. xDD HAHAH! Anywayys, im tired now. i might update at night later. BYE!

P.S. Everything is fine now. i know it is.

Imprints of ♥ 2:55 AM.

Super heart-broken right now. i seriously don't know what to say. i thikn i might just break down and cry in front of HER if i see her later. What am i supposed to do? Act as if i don't know anything? Treat it as though nothing happened? i don't think i can do it. i highly doubt the fact that i can treat it as nothing happened at all. im seriously extremely heart-broken. Somebody tell me, what am i supposed ot do about it? im crying. i hate this. i hate this. Someone stop it. i don't want to believe its true. i wish its not true. Someone tell me its a lie. Please? i don't want to face this. Not now, not ever. i don't want to lose a daughter. She is my DAUGHTER! She is supposed to go through thick and thin as we said we would. So why is this happening NOW?! i can't think about it. Not anymore. Its falling apart. im crying again. Nothing's alright anymore. Shit. i hate you.

Tag replies:

Garry: WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL ME ABOUT IT EARLIER?! COULDN'T YOU GET MY NUMBER AND CALL ME OR SOMETHING?! WHY LET ME SEE IT ONLY NOW?! WHY LET ME KNOW ABOUT IT SO LATE?! WHY?! ARGHH!!!!!!!!!

Imprints of ♥ 12:25 AM.

Wednesday, January 07, 2009

PISSED OFF!

Imprints of ♥ 1:28 AM.

Tuesday, January 06, 2009

Hahahs, im currently using my manager's laptop tp update. Cause i was working just now. Then he bring out his laptop, so i just take and use lorhhs. xDD So happy. EHHHHH! Today Verna let me eat salmon. DAMN NICE YO! Hehehhs, tomorrow leave, Thursday working until 2 then i going Nanyang poly for open house. i think Nadiah and the sec4 express sec5 NA students going. (((((: FUN! i called Jane, Sijia, HanSheng and Sakdiyah to follow me down on Thursday, zharbor confirm already. So now is only Hansheng, Sijia and Sakdiyah need to confirm with me. LALALALALALA! i haven't seen the newbie at LJS yet. GRRRR. He doing closing today. Maybe i should stay until he comes then i see then i go home. BLAHH BLAHH! THAT UNCLE SCOLDED ME. Y-Y Cause got one uncle always come take water one. Then i ask him bring cup he scold me say don't want. Wahh lau ehhhhh, i damn sad larhhs. Then Chelsea (my colleague) came down to find me. Ask me check schedule. She in for deep shit liao larhhs. Cause Joeffery working full shift. AWW! xDD Anywayys, i need let my manager use already larhhs. Later he kill me. HAHAH! i update when i go gime. BYE PEOPLE!

P.S. SHIT, uncle is back. ><

Imprints of ♥ 4:59 PM.

Monday, January 05, 2009

DAMN. i want the new FeiLunHai album. WHO WANT HELP ME PREORDER?! i will love that person for LIFE. Wait, maybe not. But WHATEVER! xDD

Imprints of ♥ 3:24 AM.

i don't feel like going to work tonight. i will be seeing that irritating bitch later. Never tell me anything, just because i did something small, curse at me call me lanjiao. Sorry horhh cheebye. i don't have. If you want scold, do it in my face. Bitch. GRRRRRRRRR. Thank god she is quitting soon. Sadly, her son not working anymore. i get along well h\with her son, just not her. I WANNA CURSE AND SWEAR AT HER SO BAD! Mother fucking son of a bitch. Nabeicheebye. Think you older can jst scold me lanjiao. i call you bo cheebye larhhs. KNN.

[Don't ask me about it. Not revealing anything.]

Imprints of ♥ 12:06 AM.

Saturday, January 03, 2009

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Its too bad if you didn't read it yo. HAHAHAH!

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Anywayys, aside from that, im here to UPDATE, If i don't, i reckon i will get killed by millions of people. LOLS. These days, i have been thinking about the days of 2008. as you can see, we are now in the third day of 2009, and basically, i really think that i have done alot of stupid and brainless things last year, Things that i regret alot. Many people would know what im referring to. How things became bad, and from baaaaddd to worse. Seriously, even if i did regret doing all those things, would they even believe it? Hmmmmmm. i wonder. Thats one. Secondly, i went back to CVSS yesterday, to see how the sec1s are and to find people. MAJORITY of the sec1s are fine. Only sec 1B gave the councillors and US alumni students a major headache. Me, WeiLiang, JunWen korr and Eugene were only with them for under 2 hours and i yelled at them twice, all of us almost vomitted blood and all i could say was, IM IN HELL. =.= Sakdiyah was with them for over an hour and she screamed at them. Sheesh, all the lameness and dumbness they made us feel. When Mr Nazri asked who wasn't feeling well, all the people taking sec 1B RAISED UP THEIR HANDS. All complaining not feeling well. However, that question did not refer nor include us. How sad. After that, school dismissed. Then i go and find NADIAH and IRENE. xDD Actually wanted to go down to LJS eat one. but then Sakdiyah say want to go SGH (bad memories) to find her papa cause he hospitalised. He kena water retention sia. o.O Anywayys, went there instead. Had lunch there, came back to school. Met Nisa At outram MRT then go SGH then she came back with us to school. Kajiao-ed Khairul, then go find people kajiao. After kajiao i go peii nad. Then i fly to NPCC there. Cause the rest all like 'camping' there like that. Sit there play with JunWen korr's PSP. Hahahs, then marcus come find me. Irene had to stay back later for some choir thingy. Nad missed taps and all the announcements. =.=''' So did Azira, Minie and esther. o.O According to her, (i heard about it only today) they sang taps without them, made announcements without informing them about it and also, no one knew before hand that CCA recruitment was TODAY. How irresponsible can the commitee members get man! Zzzzzzzzzz. After that, went home, cause mama called me and we quarrelled.

Today, work at 0730. Reached there and started doing prep whatsoever. i swear today was damn pissing man. i mean like, i working there for at least 2 months already. Then today come one couple, buy food right, make so many bloody comments. Then they ask for tartar sauce what, then they never order fish, so i have to charge then 20 cents per packet what, BASKET, THEY GO TO THEIR PLACE AND THEN CURSE ME. NABEII. IM JUST DOING MY JOB NIA. AND ITS LIKE, PRICED THERE IN THE CASHIER, THEY COME SCOLD AND BLAME ME. WTF IS WRONG WITH THEM LARHH. HELLO?! Please larhhs, the bloody POLICY is not I come up one right. WHY THE FUCK SCOLD ME?! Asshole. Then some indian family asked for feedback number. i think i did something wrong, cause i gave Steven's (thats my area manager) number to her. After that, i found out from Verna, Aizah and Muhaimin that apparently, Aizah dropped her customer's fries, asked Muhaimin to replace it, but he didn't, and then he just went like, 'don't care larhhs' and just place everythiung back inside the bloody plate. WTH. So it means i did something wrong, cause i should have informed Verna. =.= AHHHHHHHHHH! STUPID LARHHS. Anywayys, wasn't in quite a good mood after that, so like no use like that. After Muhaimin left, the shop was like, damn quiet. Even Verna felt that way. o.O Nadiah and Irene came to find me after CCA recruitment day (i told you it was today) and they had lunch there. Irene waited until Marcus come at 2 plus then they both left. Nadiah waited for me until 3 plus, when i clock out then we went home together. ((((: HAHAH! Nad is loved! Apparrently, she was avoiding Eugene today. =.= Dumb. And IM SLEEPY YO! i think i go eat my hog dog roll then i go sleep awhile. TIRED. im working in the morning tomorrow too. Zzzzzzz. im gonna die of exhaustion soon sia. LOLS! Results are releasing soon, many many many poly open houses happening next week. i wanna take the 8th, 9th and 10th of January off so i can go for the open houses yo. ANYONE WANNA GO WITH ME?! xDD i think im gonna call Jane, Sakdiyah, SiJia and company down. The sec4s and sec5s are going down to nanyang poly on Thursday. Mabe i can find them there THEN. And maybe WOMAN would be going to the OPEN HOUSE too. HAHAH! i hope so. Now, time for me to SLEEP! CIAO!

Imprints of ♥ 5:40 PM.