Thursday, January 22, 2009
i feel damn bloody fucked up right now. And i agree with what Nad posted on yesterday.
'' She likes to pretend that everything's alright because when everyone else thinks you're fine, sometimes you forget for awhile that you're not. ''
Don't you agree? Maybe thats why everytime i tell people i'm alright, they always think i am, and then i pyscho myself into THINKING that im fine. Is that why? i really wonder. What does she think i am? Her sandbag? Something for her to vent all her anger out on just because im her daughter? i'm also human too okayys. i DO have feelings alright. Dumb fuck. She makes me super duper mad like shit. i wanna kill people. But i don't know what i can do. i wanna pick a quarrel with someone, fight with someone, just bash someone up. But who on earth will be nice enough to allow me to do that? No one in the right state of mind would let me do that, even if i were a girl. Ass.
It was just 5 minutes ago she said those hurtful things to me, just 5 fucking minnutes ago. And i can still remember everything clearly in my mind. It just keeps repeating inside my head. '' Everything you say is just words, you don't mean a thing at all. '' Is that right? Is it true? What the hell is wrong? What in the fucking world did i do WRONG? i didn't feel this sad when that idiot using garry's name insulted me like shit, but why does her words affect me so much? i didn't do anything wrong. So why the hell is she picking on me like that. i swear she does this type of things on purpose, isn't it? If that isn't the case, THEN WHY THE HELL IS SHE SCOLDING ME FOR NO APPARENT REASON?!
i don't wanna talk to anyone anymore. Leave me alone alright?
'' She likes to pretend that everything's alright because when everyone else thinks you're fine, sometimes you forget for awhile that you're not. ''
Don't you agree? Maybe thats why everytime i tell people i'm alright, they always think i am, and then i pyscho myself into THINKING that im fine. Is that why? i really wonder. What does she think i am? Her sandbag? Something for her to vent all her anger out on just because im her daughter? i'm also human too okayys. i DO have feelings alright. Dumb fuck. She makes me super duper mad like shit. i wanna kill people. But i don't know what i can do. i wanna pick a quarrel with someone, fight with someone, just bash someone up. But who on earth will be nice enough to allow me to do that? No one in the right state of mind would let me do that, even if i were a girl. Ass.
It was just 5 minutes ago she said those hurtful things to me, just 5 fucking minnutes ago. And i can still remember everything clearly in my mind. It just keeps repeating inside my head. '' Everything you say is just words, you don't mean a thing at all. '' Is that right? Is it true? What the hell is wrong? What in the fucking world did i do WRONG? i didn't feel this sad when that idiot using garry's name insulted me like shit, but why does her words affect me so much? i didn't do anything wrong. So why the hell is she picking on me like that. i swear she does this type of things on purpose, isn't it? If that isn't the case, THEN WHY THE HELL IS SHE SCOLDING ME FOR NO APPARENT REASON?!
i don't wanna talk to anyone anymore. Leave me alone alright?
Imprints of ♥ 11:34 PM.
