Sunday, May 10, 2009

i only have one word to describe what im thinking of now.
DEATH.
Seriously man.
i feel damn suicidal now larhh.
i know its really stupid.
But really man, im starting to regret even living life the way it is now.
Emo season, back again.
Fake smiles, supposed laughters, acting like as if nothing is wrong.
Its gonna all come back to me again.
But i will not cry in school.
i will cry when im alone in my room, to myself.
i will not let anyone see that im sad, because that will only make them worried.
i will not tell anyone what im feeling now, because that will only make things worse.
im gonna keep everything locked up inside me.
im gonna make sure i shut up and not tell anyone anything.
im gonna lock my emotions up.
im just going to be another person.
Not the Sharlene who smiles brightly when she sees someone or something she likes,
not the Sharlene who will shout and scream with joy for no reason,
not the Sharlene who can make people happy,
not the same person that i am now.
im not fit to be me,
i have no rights to be me anymore.
No one would care anyway, definitely not him.
So why should anyone bother if im dead or alive.

Imprints of ♥ 11:47 PM.